JOLIE BUTTER

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kisskissdash:

daniiphae:

This is very hard for me at this moment in my life to express my heart/mind to the world, but I will say these last few months have been the worst months of my life. I was dating someone (J$tash) that abused me verbally ,emotionally and physically throughout the end duration of our relationship. Monday morning on September 15th 2014 my life was forever, changed. A person I thought and believed I could trust, whom I gave my love/time/energy to brutally punched me in my face repeatedly with his fists while I became slowly unconscious covered in blood in his brooklyn apartment bed. After he was done he told me to not tell anyone to not tell my friends, He also started to prepare legal action to protect himself in case I pressed charges against him. He cried and became unstable within his emotions and was apologetic towards his actions, but would continue to say i did this to myself.

He then boarded a flight to Japan a few hours after and has been sending me text messages claiming he will destroy me even more than he already did. He said he will ruin my life! I got brutally beaten for confronting him on infidelity which caused him to become violent in an instant.

Do not interpret this as a cry for help this is honestly a decision to speak up against domestic violence for those who cant due to the manipulative acts our abusers inflict on us to never speak up and for those who didn’t survive because of brutal domestic violence.

I will not allow myself to sit in the shadows of darkness and disrespect myself for not taking a stand.

I am speaking out for all my women!

Be brave this is what bravery looks like.


Abuser: Justin Joseph / J$tash

Oh my god I would fucking kill this bastard

I love how a lil chubby my face was #tb #curls #prettiness

I love how a lil chubby my face was #tb #curls #prettiness

Currently reading #ThingsFallApart by the legendary #ChinuaAchebe #AfricanLiterature

Currently reading #ThingsFallApart by the legendary #ChinuaAchebe #AfricanLiterature

17 years in 2010. Don’t see much of a change though =[ 
#tbt #CleopatraFringeLike #Weave

17 years in 2010. Don’t see much of a change though =[
#tbt #CleopatraFringeLike #Weave

My every day view from my room # MommyNature #NelsonMandelaMetropolitanUniversity #NatureReserve #Beauty #VarsityLife

My every day view from my room # MommyNature #NelsonMandelaMetropolitanUniversity #NatureReserve #Beauty #VarsityLife

youngblackandvegan:

dude-its-liz:

I am strong because on October 15th, 2010 at 37 weeks pregnant we walked into our OB office and found out our son Tiberius had passed away.I am strong because I laboured for 12 beautiful hours and gave birth to my stillborn son in a silent room.I am strong because on October 22nd 2010, my husband and I buried our first child.I am strong because 12 weeks after we buried our first son we found out we were expecting again.I am strong because on May 2nd, 2011, at 18 weeks pregnant, we found out our second son Jacob would not be coming home with us, he was given a fatal diagnosis. I am strong because despite having a fatal diagnosis we chose to carry Jacob and do everything we possibly could. I am strong because during the next 18 weeks Jacob’s diagnosis changed into something no medical doctor had ever seen before and his prognosis became unknown. I am strong because on September 5th, 2011, our son Jacob was born via c-section. He cried even though we were told he would not.I am strong because for the next 2 1/2 days Jacob fought so hard to stay with us and we fought so hard to keep him comfortable and did everything we could.I am strong because at 7:45pm on September 7th, we had to make a decision no parent should ever have to make, we pulled his life support and Jacob peacefully passed away.I am strong because on September 14th, 2011 we buried our second child. I am strong because 9 months after we buried Jacob we decided to try once more.I am strong because we became pregnant with what we hoped would truly be our rainbow babe. I am strong because at 18 weeks we found out we were having a healthy little girl. I am strong because I carried her for 36 1/2 weeks all along knowing we could lose her too.I am strong because on January 8th, 2013, I was induced and we were on the way to meeting our miracle babe.I am strong because after 16 rough hours of vbac labour, our miracle baby, Phoebe Faith, was born. Crying, screaming, healthy and alive. I am strong because even though I only parent one child, I am a mother of three.I am strong because I have carried 3 children full term but two already reside in Heaven. I am strong because I chose to cling onto hope and faith when everything else was against us.I am strong because parenting a rainbow baby is a challenging time in life. I am strong because my hopes and dreams have been shattered but I chose to hold on and now have a beautiful little girl who is the light of my life.Mamas who have endured loss, don’t ever give up. Your rainbow could be one more rainy day away. [x]

the strength it takes to have children is something many will never understand
beautiful story

youngblackandvegan:

dude-its-liz:

I am strong because on October 15th, 2010 at 37 weeks pregnant we walked into our OB office and found out our son Tiberius had passed away.

I am strong because I laboured for 12 beautiful hours and gave birth to my stillborn son in a silent room.

I am strong because on October 22nd 2010, my husband and I buried our first child.

I am strong because 12 weeks after we buried our first son we found out we were expecting again.

I am strong because on May 2nd, 2011, at 18 weeks pregnant, we found out our second son Jacob would not be coming home with us, he was given a fatal diagnosis. 

I am strong because despite having a fatal diagnosis we chose to carry Jacob and do everything we possibly could. 

I am strong because during the next 18 weeks Jacob’s diagnosis changed into something no medical doctor had ever seen before and his prognosis became unknown. 

I am strong because on September 5th, 2011, our son Jacob was born via c-section. He cried even though we were told he would not.

I am strong because for the next 2 1/2 days Jacob fought so hard to stay with us and we fought so hard to keep him comfortable and did everything we could.

I am strong because at 7:45pm on September 7th, we had to make a decision no parent should ever have to make, we pulled his life support and Jacob peacefully passed away.

I am strong because on September 14th, 2011 we buried our second child. 

I am strong because 9 months after we buried Jacob we decided to try once more.

I am strong because we became pregnant with what we hoped would truly be our rainbow babe. 

I am strong because at 18 weeks we found out we were having a healthy little girl. 

I am strong because I carried her for 36 1/2 weeks all along knowing we could lose her too.

I am strong because on January 8th, 2013, I was induced and we were on the way to meeting our miracle babe.

I am strong because after 16 rough hours of vbac labour, our miracle baby, Phoebe Faith, was born. Crying, screaming, healthy and alive. 

I am strong because even though I only parent one child, I am a mother of three.

I am strong because I have carried 3 children full term but two already reside in Heaven. 

I am strong because I chose to cling onto hope and faith when everything else was against us.

I am strong because parenting a rainbow baby is a challenging time in life. 

I am strong because my hopes and dreams have been shattered but I chose to hold on and now have a beautiful little girl who is the light of my life.

Mamas who have endured loss, don’t ever give up. Your rainbow could be one more rainy day away[x]

the strength it takes to have children is something many will never understand

beautiful story

(via fierrrrrrce)

I got dressed this morning. For myself.
Put on eye liner. for myself.

Put on my favorite red lipstick. for myself.

Showed a bit of skin. for myself
I wanted to be beautiful. For myself.

—(via moaka)

Why not? I don’t like impressing men…they never know the difference exactly

(Source: planetfaraway, via butterflyblueocean)

Levi’s has always been the ultimate, classic jeans that’ll never disappoint! #LegendaryPair

Levi’s has always been the ultimate, classic jeans that’ll never disappoint! #LegendaryPair

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zishlr:

Such qualities lack in most relationships (friendships, romantic relationships) which results in people parting ways. In order to keep the love alive TRUST, HONESTY, RESPECT and CARING should be a priority. The channel to implement such traits is COMMUNICATION! And remember to put God first in all your relationships and have a well established relationship with Him. All will go well in your life.
#1Corinthians13   #God   #Faith   #Devotions   

zishlr:

Such qualities lack in most relationships (friendships, romantic relationships) which results in people parting ways. In order to keep the love alive TRUST, HONESTY, RESPECT and CARING should be a priority. The channel to implement such traits is COMMUNICATION! And remember to put God first in all your relationships and have a well established relationship with Him. All will go well in your life.

#1Corinthians13   #God   #Faith   #Devotions